I’m humorous so seldom, it’s sometimes delightful to make someone laugh. Also, part of immortality is longevity–staying abreast of all things modern. I try, but the truth is that global communication and instantaneous informational feedback have made that prospect a daunting one. I do work hard at it–turns of phrase, memes, slang, but it isn’t easy.

So when I succeed at a new-styled joke, I know I am learning things precisely as they should be taught and I am content. 

The experiment is an excellent source of such education and I am eternally grateful for all the help my gentle readers provide for explanation. It is very much appreciated.

I believe the word you were searching for was “narcissist”.

Neither, I’m afraid. It would make everything I say rather cut and dry and simple, wouldn’t it. I think you’ll find, the longer you track me, that nothing I say or do fits those two labels at all. 

In fact, I view kindness and compassion as a discipline and work very diligently at it. not because I lack emotions, but because the quality of them differs from human experience and many of the things that hurt you have absolutely no consequences for me. I have to manufacture empathy, but I can absolutely do that, because I am not a psychopath or a self-absorbed narcissist. 

Please do feel free to read the FAQ linked in the description. You may find it very helpful.

I would say they’ve proven to be far less monstrous. Which is to say, I define myself as being the monster and they but poor substitutes. “Monster” is an ancient word which has nothing whatsoever to do with evil. I might have known they’d try to steal and redefine it.

So don’t go on tumblr, a forum for the open expression of ideas. People inform others because of true need and self preservation. If you don’t have the energy for that, again, what a luxury.

I’m sure POC would rather not have to keep using their energy informing the world of racism, but if they don’t, nothing is done. Because of racism.

That’s but one example.

If you don’t want to hear about how the world “sucks” then my advice is for you to do something about your feelings of powerlessness and actually participate in some way.

There are things you can do at 11pm. But of course, whether or not you do them is up to you.

So please allow me to reiterate—you don’t want to hear about politics in an open forum full of the very people being smashed by bad policy? Well then, become a hermit and don’t ever spend time on the internet, because you’re in for it.

That’s like going to the cinema and becoming upset with people who buy popcorn because you don’t like the smell of it.

I understand your feelings, but I’m trying to say that your compassion and desire to be informed and knowledgeable ought to shut off the nonsensical portion of your brain.

This “I only have so much energy” or “spoons” meme is very helpful for some in most circumstances, but one thing I wish modern humans would have learned (and I mean the last several generations) is that that idea never existed before. You have as much energy as you must until the job is done. That’s how your body evolved. That’s how energy is created.

I could go on a lengthy rant here, but I won’t. My point is simple: find the energy for the sake of everyone, or don’t come to open forums, when the people affected have the space and time to discuss.

It is going to happen whether or not you want to face it. My advice is to do what you can, when you can, and never take time for granted.

That’s all you can do. I’m sorry.